Dear Zoe...

PLEASE GO TO SLEEP!!!

Today I drove 40 minutes to take you to the babysitter. When I got there I realized that I never strapped your car seat in. Thank God we didn't get in an accident. Then, later in the afternoon at work, I realized I was wearing two different shoes. No joke. Then on the way home, I strapped your car seat in, but I didn't strap YOU into the car seat!!!! And do you want to know why I did all these ridiculous things today?

Because you keep me up all night!!!! :) I am SO tired that I am not thinking straight!

Then, on the way home, our 40 minute drive turned into an hour and 40 minutes because of an accident on the freeway. We were stopped and waiting for a very long time. You were hungry and screaming. Eventually I couldn't take it anymore so I pulled over to the side of the freeway, took you out of your car seat and nursed you right then and there! You should have seen the looks I got! I was nearly causing another accident! Now you can't ever say I'm a bad mom. :)

You are THREE months old now!!! You have changed so much just this last WEEK. You are SO alert and very smart. You are a momma's girl, BIG TIME, and I love it. Sometimes you cry just because you don't want anyone to hold you other than me. This week you have taken a liking to the binky. YAY! It makes soothing you just a little bit easier. I know it's going to be difficult to break the habit, but for now, it works for both of us. You talk to me a lot. You love smiling and you actually laughed out loud for the first time a few weeks ago!!! I cried. It was the most beautiful and amazing thing I'd ever heard. You haven't done it since though. Little stinker.

My love for you grows every single day. Just when I think my heart is filled to capacity, it expands! I love you my little monkey.